Wednesday, August 29, 2007

29-8-2007












夕阳无限好
只是近黄昏...





*回家的路上塞车塞到半条命时干的无聊事 ~

28-8-2007





也是一样啦...
忙咯
上班嘛
再加上月尾咯...



租我公寓的那人打电话来
说租到十月尾
这两个月的租金就从抵押金那里扣Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket
水电的抵押金就迟点再说
酱我接下来的日子怎么过...Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

27-8-2007

很忙的一天...
好事来的吧?
没时间去胡思乱想啊 ~
只是累...


下班时分为了帮忙同事叫计程车迟了回家
天都暗了路上也没什么车了
越走越怕...
然后就跑着上车锁门...Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Sunday, August 26, 2007

"Leave Out All the Rest"





I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
[End Chorus]

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

[Chorus]
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that ive done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well

Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are





~ Linkin Park

Saturday, August 25, 2007

25-8-2007



仰望天空一片的蓝
我的心情依然沉重...



大约两个星期前
家人最新发现的病状是
把手往下放静脉动脉都看得很清楚
肉眼看得到动脉的跳动
然后用手指可以轻易的把静动脉移动
就是说可以把它们拨左拨右...

然后再和一位很要好的朋友提起时
他竟然发现自己的手也一样...
那时大家心里无限的惊诧怎么会这样巧 ~

事过两个星期的今天
收到的消息是:
我只想告诉你,我的左手,已经证实废了。
我现在已经不能使用我的左手。
现在,我连一只茶杯都没办法提起来。

为什么?
为什么会这样的?



我知道
哭泣改变不了什么
只证明了我的无能

Thursday, August 23, 2007

23-8-2007

接到龙哥哥的电话
有点受宠若惊...
谢谢龙哥哥的关心帮忙 ~ Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket





收费站之前什么都没说过...
今天才知道
对不起...
从来没有好好的关心过你还要你为我担心 Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket







很多时候我们都觉得自己是最重要的
是不是应该放慢脚步
关心一下身边的朋友们...

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

22-8-2007

下着毛毛雨的早晨 ~



还是很累的一天...
我的意思是说早上起床就开始累了那种
很想睡觉
一路驾着车
一路打哈欠
脑袋迷迷糊糊的...
想到今天还要开一整天的会更累 Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket



从十点半开到两点才去吃饭...
还跑到树下去吃印度饭的
结果就开始头痛了 ~ Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

"4 In The Morning"


Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me



~ Gwen Stefani

Sunday, August 19, 2007

19-8-2007

今天去看了 Ratatouille ~






好可爱的 Remy...




在戏里一直听到它叫我的名字...
觉得迷迭香还是最好的
所以我决定暂时不做冬虫草了 Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket



Saturday, August 18, 2007

18-8-2007





如果我是冬虫草...
是草的时候
我随风摇摆
是虫的时候
我都在睡觉
有什么不好
不必担心
没有悲伤
不必烦恼
没有压力





婆婆去世一周年纪念~

Thursday, August 16, 2007

16-8-2007

今天早上的天空...









做人有时候真的好累好累...
早上塞车上班 ~ 累
工作压力 ~ 累
面对无礼取闹的同事 ~ 累
下班塞车回家 ~ 累
人也累
心更累



下辈子不要做人了行吗?



我想做冬虫草...
每年六个月做草
六个月做虫
最多是不小心被采去炖汤 ~

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

15-8-2007

今天的早餐...
烟肉 + cheese 塞入全麦 pita bread
再放进烤炉烤一下
面包就变香脆了 ~ easy job










明天开始放假两天...
调整一下心境 ~

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

14-8-2007

昨晚又睡不好了
差不多每晚都流着眼泪睡去
早上起来双眼浮肿...
要哭也要躲起来偷偷的哭
要不然会令人更感心烦和压力吧 ~

Monday, August 13, 2007

13-8-2007

很累...
就是不想开口说话
只想静静的过我的日子
什么也不去想
想太多
也帮不了什么
越想越乱
坏了大家的心情
很想什么都不是真的
很希望全都是因为我的脑袋坏了胡思乱想凭空捏造的
行吗?


现实是残酷的谁不懂 ~


继续郁闷... Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Friday, August 10, 2007

9-8-2007

帮帮忙~
很想找一个很久以前曾经收到的音乐 flash
可是这几天找了很久都找不到...


印象中有一个这样的 flash file:
是很多五颜六色的小熊在走着的
不停的向前走
慢慢的一些小熊就停止前进
音乐好像是日本歌
然后有歌词显示的
意思大概是说在我们漫长的人生里
有些人会陪着我们一起走
有些人因为某些原因停止前进
可是我们要继续往前走
当有一天到我们停止前进时
其他的人还是要继续的往前走...



虽然不太确定有多少人会看到这
希望大家能帮我这个忙...
谢谢咯~ Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Wednesday, August 8, 2007

8-8-2007

心情总算稍微平静了点~



早餐还是要吃的
就做了这个蘑菇+ cheese 面包...
放入烤炉
President 的 cheese 好像不会熔的
烤之前和之后都没什么分别



来到办公室同事买了个蛋垯给我
新鲜出炉的哦 ~ Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket





十点半开会...
因为某些自私的人迟到
结果等到过了十一点才开始 Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket
然后午餐就叫 Pizza 在会议室里解决
整四点才散会...



很累 ~
好事来的吧
根本没多余的时间去胡思乱想

7-8-2007 (2)

谢谢大家...
谢谢大家的关心和鼓励 ~ Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket
虽然我们只是在网上/在论坛上/在部落格里的朋友
很感激你们的留言...
看到你们的关心真的很感动


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下班一上到车就哭...
泪水一直掉
45分钟后回到家
眼睛好累好累...


坐了下来大家好好的谈一谈 ~
虽然泪水不曾间断过
如果症状持续下去
最坏的打算大概还有两年的时间
乐观的想法就是最少还有两年的时间
两年的时间说长不长说短不短
肯定不容易走...
只希望不放弃


决定好好的珍惜每一天
Every day is an extra blessing ~

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

7-8-2007

心情好差~
不知道该怎么写
尽量吧…
当你生命里很重要的一个人
身体出了状况
你该怎么反应 ~


刚知道时…
我不肯接受现实
没有确定的医疗报告我是怎么也不会接受的
更何况现在的医疗报告也未必准确无误
不想白担心
继续坚持自己的想法
不会是这样的
不会的


当所看到的是越来越明显的症状
就算我还是坚持着
仍旧不肯接受现实
心还是直坠到谷底
除了冰冷
还是冰冷



泪又滑了下来

Monday, August 6, 2007

6-8-2007

昨天在Jusco 买了 Pita Bread
今早做了吞拿鱼+鸡蛋+大葱+美奶滋的料塞进面包里
再加上一片 cheese
然后放进烤箱里烤几分钟
想不到烤过的 pita bread 很香脆~
味道也不错
可是太开心吃完了才发觉忘了拍照... Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket



很奇怪的是我和平时一样同一个时间起床
还做了那么多东西(面包是打包去到办公室才吃的)
竟然没迟到 ~ Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket



午餐的时候买了这个巧克力要RM9.50
很好吃的黑巧克力
一点都不苦 ~






下班的路上也没塞车...
奇怪 ~

Sunday, August 5, 2007

4-8-2007

很快的又过完一个星期了... Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket
终于吃到山竹咯
因为不会选所以不敢买
最喜欢还是比较小粒的
才没那些大大粒的种子....Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket


黄色的灯光下拍的山竹 ~



Thursday, August 2, 2007

2-8-2007

今天算是准时上班
其实可以更早到的
在上班的路上顺便停车寄信
花的时间不多
可是有一辆车在路中间抛锚 Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket



幸好我下班也迟的
所以不会觉得过意不去啦...Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

1-8-2007

哈哈~ 先报告一下
今天我没迟到哦 Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket




我的早餐...
自己做的哦
觉得很好看所以拍照啦
味道不错
下次要多放些 mayonnaise Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket